haha, many many things i need to face and carry. really want to help my dad because seeing him working so hard to just survive, to spend money on us is like.... yet i can spend his money likea free?!
Sooooooo.. my saving plan will start right now! is not gonna be easy because i am not a person that can save money.
i think this is what it means to carry the burden of your own family and in church, in family we helped our parents to do things, to save and earn enough money to pay off your own things. In church, we clean and serve in church to rise up in the CG and take care people who are new. that is what it means to carry burden.
i am in my new season of life, this new season of my own life... hmmm, i don't think is easy at all. at times i really broke down because i couldn't face the stressfulness. i have 4 things on my hands now:
1) Internship
2) Unable to do much in church
3) Family
4) Finances
i felt it was like 4 walls in your face that cannot be break down. it is not easy at ALL.
but, PERSPECTIVE is the word. the way i look, the way i think have to be different. i am trying to, i am trying to change my mindset. but i couldn't.
the only way i could do is to pray and seek God, that's all.
we cannot give up in life so easily, cannot at all because God never give up on us and that is all i can say.
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